I miss you, I miss us snuggling, I miss us being ridiculously over affectionate, hearing you call me snuggle bunny right in my ear.
I love being with you.
It sucks that what I guess has been made worse by emotional scars is making me worse than normal when it comes to these things… Long term feelings that is. I’m too used to emotions changing instantly. It’s making it far harder to stay with you.
Because I keep shutting myself down to you. And I don’t want to.
You’re amazing. And I love spending time with you. And I don’t deserve you.
I want to make you as happy as you make me.
I thought I was better but now I’m feeling bad again. And I don’t know if it’s going to just be a couple days. Or if it’s going to be part of the bigger cycle.